My lovely wonderful fiance, knows nothing about me.

He's returning home from vegas today, should land at one this after noon. so at about midnight I told him I wasn't going to sleep till I saw him.

He said 1400 dollars says you can't do it.

I laughed.

sooo everyone should tell me, what do you think I should do with the money?

I still have like nine hours on anime to watch, and I have laundry and I need a shower. I can do this no fucking problem.

I hope he brings cash with him.

okay so like holy fucking shit, started watching this anime called Skip Beat! and then started reading the manga and

HOLY FUCKING GOD!!!!!

I'm totally going *squee* in my heart. give me a week yall

I totally feel some prose bubbling inside of me.

slow round rolls
slither
slide
and plop
leaving the cheek
for chest

tears are a virus
I'm pushing out
of my soul

Just make me
feel pretty

And I'll do what ever you want me too......

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm feeling alittle numb, probably not helping that I'm tipsy and alone and reading fanfiction that are bringing me to sobbing tears

Something that makes me feel so whole shouldn't leave me feeling broken

should it?

is this the way it's supposed to be?

Am I supposed to wanna cry, to feel like I can never be close to you without seeing her?

I want nothing more then to have you name, god all I want is to have your fucking name! and you don't believe me, that I'm in it for something else.

I don't like hurting, I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to stop.

I want to go home.

I want this to end.

long time no post. lol

well I posted something, it's not anything really just something.

Hi jesse